Suzanne SxySadist’s Personal Blog

The life & times, ups & downs and general musings of a professional sexual sadist.

August 26, 2009

New Photos of Yours Truly…

Filed under: Personal Reflections — Suzanne SxySadist @ 7:07 pm

It has been a number of years since I have done a photo shoot with anyone but this week Monday a fabulous photographer named Henry Porter came by and we shot several 100 pics which he distilled down to the 140 or so that he sent me in a zip file this morning. :) I am totally thrilled with a LOT of them and that just made my day!

To be honest I wasn’t sure I was going to like what I saw. I am not getting any younger as is evidenced by more and more wrinkles and “smile lines” and although I have been working really hard to lose the weight I gained after quiting smoking 19 months ago, I am still not happy with my current weight. (But then how many women ever REALLY are?)

But I am really excited about these shots and have started posting them to my website and a couple of my public profiles. Here is one of my favorites as well as a link to a gallery of two dozen more. Photo Gallery Link 

I am not sure I want to take down the shots of me already on the site but not because I want to mislead anyone into thinking I am younger / thinner or anything like that .. the reasons are actually more sentimental.  The vast majority of the photos currently on my website were take by my former partner Nelson who went by the name “Neil Shadow” as a photographer and they hold a very special place in my heart especially since he passed away this month last year. (Wow, I can’t believe he has been gone a year now!) :( 

Anyway… I guess for right now I will find a way to work in enough of the newest ones so I can’t be accused of “false advertising” (lol) while preserving enough of the ones that make my sentimental heart happy. I hope that is OK with folks and that you enjoy the new photos! Love & whips to all!

August 23, 2009

Twitter, Rope Share, New Boots & More!

Filed under: Adventure Reports, Personal Reflections — Suzanne SxySadist @ 9:14 am

So I was probably the last person on the planet to get a Twitter account because I wasn’t really convinced that I wanted or needed one, but I guess it could be a great tool to keep interested people up to speed on what I am up to between blog posts. So to that end, I added a widget for it here in the side bar…. I hope some of you find those updates interesting. 

Sick PuppiesSo what have I been up to? Well, it’s been a pretty cool couple of weeks around here for the most part. My niece treated me to a very loud, very noisy concert at The Chance not long ago.  They had quite a few bands including: “Semblence of a Soul”, “Tunnels to Holland”, “Hurt” and ”The Sick Puppies”!  Now I fell in love with The “Puppies” song “All the Same” when it was featured in the “Free Hugs” campaign but I was surprised at how dissimilar the rest of their music was to it and had to admit that I am starting to feel old. 

This really hit home for me when my niece slid down into the mosh pit while I scouted for a comfortable pice of post to lean against.  Honestly, standing in one place for 3 to 4 hours is not my cup of tea anymore, but since The Chance is totally general admission - standing room only you don’t get a lot of choice. I still had a good time and I got to get introduced to a couple of bands I had never heard before which inspired me to check out some other music by “Hurt” in particular and discovered that I actually liked some of it. Maybe I am not that damn old after all huh? :)

In other news, the last rope gathering was a lot of fun as usual! Once again my friends Paul DaSade & wife cc from CT and Dez & a sweet new gal pal from NH came as well as the fabulous Murphy Blue  with his pair of “kitties” and another fun couple from the local area all came to enjoy some sweet ropey time and share some summer fun and a meal. 

I successfully tried two new suspension ties… well one was a transition from sideways to face down which was a bit less graceful than I had hope but still worked.  The other was a full on inverted ankle suspension which is a particular favorite of mt sweeties but the one that makes me the most nervous of any tie I could do for a couple of reasons.  First, inverted suspension obviously is incredibly dangerous.  If anything at all goes wrong, be it mechanical failure or rigger error, the suspendee is likely to get dropped on their head leading to very serious injury or death. The other issue is if my “victim” happens to pass out (and you would be amazed at how fast a person can get woozy being hung upside down), it would be extremely difficult for me to get them down safely from a full inversion by myself. It is not as simple as cut the rope. So I jokingly asked my buddies Paul & Dez if they’d be willing to help me dispose of the body if it the need arose and they totally agreed.  That’s how you REALLY know who your friends are right? :)

Anyway, I really love the rope gatherings here but my schedule is looking pretty slammed up for Sept & Oct which means I may not be able to hold another until possibly Nov!  I will post more on the upcoming schedule soon but I ). New Boots! 

Speaking of hectic schedules, this was a really great week in the dungeon and I had a hell of a lot of fun playing with a couple of new people and a couple of new guys. God I love my job! Hell, if you can get paid to do what you love to do you will never work a day in your life right? :)

Not to mention that some of my guys bring me the loveliest and most thoughtful gifts! This week my buddy Scott brought me two fabulous pairs of boots.  The lovely leather ones in the photo on the right and a very similar pair in sexy black suede! Mm! I was so thrilled with them that I popped them on and wore them out to lunch with him that afternoon! :D

Hm as for upcoming news… I have not one but two photo shoots scheduled this coming week so I should have some nice new pics to update the website with soon! I am really looking forward to that because it feels like ages since I have had a chance to freshen the site but I am rather particular about the photos that I’ll use.  Nelson pretty much spoiled me rotten with his fabulous pics and since he passed away last year (wow it’s hard to believe he has been gone a year now), I hadn’t found the right combination of a photographer I liked could afford and feeling like I was ready to be in front of a camera. I had gained a bit of weight when I quit smoking, 19 months ago this week, but I have been working on trimming off some of that and am just about half way to my goal weight but feel good enough that I have decided to get a few pics done.  Maybe it will even help inspire me to keep at it with the diet and exercise routines.

Hm what else? Well, I am enjoying a quiet Sunday alone since Brett is off to a baseball game at Fenway Park with daughter who is a HUGE Red Sox fan.  They will probably stop over for a short nap on their way home late tonight but that leaves me a relaxing day all to myself today! :) Maybe I should drag out a box of corsets and play fashion show and see what I most want to wear for tomorrow’s photos.  Part of me would love to have some new super fetish shots but part of me also just wants some sexy “softer side of Suze” shots that I can use for my coaching site and some other somewhat vanilla places.  Maybe we can do a little of each, we’ll see how the time goes.  Ok, time for me to grab a snack and move around for a bit. I don’t want to sit at a damn key board all day today! I’d like to get out and enjoy the summer a bit as it draws to a close.  Have a great day all!

August 21, 2009

Two Wolves…

Filed under: Simply Blogging — Suzanne SxySadist @ 1:35 pm

wolvesI really enjoyed this passage and wanted to share it:

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.  He said, ‘ My son, the battle is between two ‘ wolves ‘ inside us all.

One is Evil. - It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good. - It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith. ‘

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: ‘ Which wolf wins? ‘

The old Cherokee simply replied, ‘ The one you feed. ‘

August 18, 2009

Memories of Jack

Filed under: Personal Reflections — Suzanne SxySadist @ 3:06 pm

masterjackI got a text message a couple of hours ago from my friend Dov, informing me that Jack McGeorge had died today. He didn’t have any details yet but when I checked Lolita’s site a few moments ago I found a beautiful obituary posted there. He was an amazing man and although I did not know Jack well, but I had several interactions with him over the years that have led to quite a few fond memories of him.

He came up to the Hudson Valley years ago to teach a mini DM class for the local kink group and I was deeply impressed by both his good natured yet no nonsense approach to the topic. I have also attended many of his other presentations and I can say for a fact … no one could tell a story quite like Jack could. :)

I also have a very fond memories of him during my attendance of Master Taino’s Slave Training Academy. He taught a couple of fascinating classes during that weekend but my fondest and most vivid memory was actually also my most embarrassing one. As part of the course, towards the end, the trainees are given lessons in formal table service but only given a brief opportunity to practice before the actual formal dinner where myself and my three slave sisters would each be serving one of our honoured guests: Masters’ Taino, Tallen, Jack and Lady Lynnette. I was to serve Master Jack and wanted everything to be absolutely perfect but I was extremely nervous! So nervous in fact that my hands were trembling as I tried to pour the wine as demonstrated and one tiny drop of deep red wine landed on the pure white table cloth beside him. I shot me a stern look over his shoulder and pretended to be furiously writing notes as if he was “writing me up” for my disgraceful performance. I was horrified and hew knew it, and just as I felt my heart sink he winked at me and smiled his classicly broad good natured smile and I knew he was just messing with me which totally helped break the tension I felt and let me relax a bit. (even if he did just about give me a heart attack first) :)

Yes, Jack was one of a kind. I am sorry I did not get the opportunity to know him better and my heart and deepest condolences go out to those who knew him well and loved him dearly.