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I first discovered Body Electric through a workshop at Black Rose (which is a kink convention in DC) that I attended at least 20 years ago, and all these years later – I have attended and assisted at more than 20 workshops and trainings and I still cannot say enough good things about them. And yet – it is still awkward and tricky to talk about with people. Upon returning from the Women’s CBE (Celebrating the Body Erotic) at Easton Mountain last Sunday I decided to join the “Ambassador Program” which helps train people to talk about the work. I am very excited about this and as part of my training I had to make a short video “telling my BE story”. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am a bit embarrassed to admit to you publicly that this was far harder for me than it should be. I feel awkward and very nervous in front of a camera \/ video and it has been a huge stumbling block for me for a very long time. I completely forget what I wanted to say or I stutter through reading my “script” and make no eye contact with the camera. It is part of the reason (but not the entire reason) why I did not immediately jump into Zoom sessions when the pandemic hit. I find it harder to connect with people through the camera and most times in live sessions the connection, eye contact and shared breath is the juiciest part for me. \ud83d\ude42 <\/p>\n\n\n
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Ok so – I was terrified to discover on day of of the course that I had to make this video talking about something so personal as my Body Electric experience. Their suggestion was to keep it to 2 mins and talk about what you felt. LOL That felt like “OK no big deal – you only have to jump the Grand Canyon in your first week of class and then we will go from there.” Yipes! But I also kind of believe that the Universe drops things in your path at particular times for a reason. Being in a safe environment like a BE workshop (even an online one) surrounded by remarkable caring people to support me – feels like it might be the right time to challenge this personal limitation and kick it’s ass. <grin> So – here I am – first one I scripted and tried reading and making eye contact – second one I did off the cuff while sitting in a parking lot waiting for my neighbor who was having eye surgery. \ud83d\ude42 <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I would VERY much like your considerate feedback on the videos (keeping in mind I was terrified and doing my best to challenge a fear please – lol) What do you like about the first \/ second compared to the other? What can I improve? Do either of them make you curious about learning more about Body Electric AND if you are curious – what questions might you ask to learn more? (Answering questions is our next assignment) <grin> Please put your questions and feedback on the videos in the box below or email email directly at Mistress@SxySadist.com<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n